Clean hands. Pure Heart.

You know the kinda revelational moment you get at rare moments and your heart confirms it?

2011-12-29T20:58:00.004+08:00

278th post

You know the kinda revelational moment you get at rare moments and your heart confirms it?
Yeah I just got it today.

It was really like woahhhh, HUGE relief!
It's probably unimaginable if you've not experienced sth you're stuck for more than a year.

One person to thank God for is my new UL Weihong.

He's quite a debate, I mean discuss haha, person and what he shared to me were different from what I've always been holding on to.
However, different inputs led to a new thinking pattern and results were rather amazing.

Explored another side of myself and I find it a near radical.. change?

Not that I've performed it to the fullest [ or even half ] but the attitude is not the same indeed.

Hope I can be faithful with this given grace.

A thousand words and more.

2011-10-30T13:17:00.001+08:00

277th post

How apt.

And I promise to testify.

2011-10-16T19:57:00.002+08:00

276th post

Argh the near overwhelming horrible dread is back again.
Always here whenever school is about to begin. [ Can't you just get lost?! Lol.. ]

Instead of saying I can't wait to graduate, I really don't see the point in continuing my studies.
Except to at least get a diploma so that I can seem 'more qualified' to be a full time tutor.

Honestly, if not for my parents, I'd have just given up on this and start working.

And now I'm only halfway through..

The only comforting thought now is that God is in control of my destiny.
Glad to be a creation of a Creator who not just knows what's going on, but hopes for the best for that creation despite having many others who are way ahead.

Oh oh and God!
Since You can even fill decayed teeth with gold, would You please heal my fingers to perfectly normal and not itch anymore? &&& the bones and skin to be perfectly normal like how it used to be before I was 10!

Ah God, I really wanna go for missions. You know how much I felt after watching all that No Minwoo had done in Africa. Would You please, just heal me completely of this chronic dermatitis I'm down with since I'm born so that I can go? Though the docs say I can't be, I know that You can and I truly pray that You will too. Even if it's places way dirtier, I'm willing.

'Instead of ghosts and spirits, I'm more afraid of humans.'

2011-10-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

275th post

'Instead of ghosts and spirits, I'm more afraid of humans.'
-Kyuhyun

A child's prayer:
'Dear God, please make all the bad people good, the good people nice.'

Saw that on Ms Denise Phua's fb and thought, how very true.

Why are people out to hurt one another?
And when we are called Children of God?

Are you sure?

God, come back soon please.
I'll do my best in getting ready.

Romans 12:16-20
New International Version (NIV)
16 Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position.[a] Do not be conceited.

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,”[b] says the Lord. 20 On the contrary:

“If your enemy is hungry, feed him;
if he is thirsty, give him something to drink.
In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.”[c]

To My Primary School Friends. The lovely people.

2011-09-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

274th post

I've always been not as liberal as with the term 'friend'. Many people that I know are just acquaintances, classmate, church mate, lg mate, unit mate, pri or sec school classmate etc. To me, a friend has to be someone whom I enjoy his or her presence / hanging out with , and with a certain level of mutual trust.

And to this, I really wanna thank God for these primary school friends that I have, people whom I hold pretty close to my mind and heart:

Cui Rui Rui,
My one and only girlfriend, who probably trusts me the most in this entire world, and vice versa. I never - never, have to doubt her loyalty nor afraid of being back stabbed or gossiped of. Maybe you'll see this after I die lol, but I really love you, and so thankful for you. You can never imagine the level of gratitude I have for knowing you, and that you actually chose to stick with me for the whole of 6 years till now despite of all the nonsense I've done, that have even hurt you in the past, thank you dearest. If I have 20cents with me, you'll definitely get a 10 cents. You've earned my trust; it's almost 100%. Even I can't believe it; it's incredible. I love you.

Chia Wee Wee,
Thank you so much for the sharing just now, I'm just so glad that there's someone who was there and knows what I'm talking about as I relieved probably the most precious memories up to this day of my life. I really love Hong Wen cause of the brilliant memories, and really, I've never enjoyed school since then. I'm happy to be able to listen to you too, and that it helped you feel relieved, that's even better heh; it's probably the least that I can do as we meet every 6 months lol~ I know you're someone who can give me practical advices if I need them in time to come. Loveyou too.

Joanni,
Just remembered how we used to call each other practically every single day to talk on the phone in P4 and how your mum even had to stop me lol. Enjoyed the times we had together when I went to your house, and the phone calls we made. Thank you for being the one who compiled and delivered hw for me when I had chicken pox in P5, thank you for letting me be one of your close friends when you came to 4A. So honoured too. Please join us the next time for our gathering, missyou hahaha~

Hweejuan,
I've never regretted making the first commitment in my life , which is to befriend you when you joined 5A :) Though you were probably the most shunned person with the unending vulgarities and violence which really scared the hell outta me as nobody had bullied me like you did, I'm really thankful that we became friends who still kept in touch till now. I was really touched that you considered me a friend, given the fact that you probably have a lower level of trust in people than me. It truly means a lot to me. Thank you, Hweejuan :)

Haozhi,
Although we basically didn't talk much in Hong Wen, and weren't even on good terms lol, I still remember us taking a spelling retest together in P3 as I sat beside you, which was the first time I talked more with you, and you actually helped me cheat though you were wrong in spelling abroad as aboard and I got it wrong too *laughs* And this time when we were playing soccer at that corner of the field which belongs to us 3A 4A 5A 6R, I just randomly smiled at you when someone went to pick the ball and you actually smiled back - to my absolute surprise hahaha. Now we are more of like birthday friends; catching up a little every year with the exchange of greetings. I'll always remember your birthday is exactly 2 weeks before mine on the 25th haha~ You're the only person whom I've never met up with to catch up, but I hope someday you'll know that I really treat you as a special friend of mine whom I'm very thankful and honored to have known. Thanks for the short poem you wrote for me 4 years back lol, you're the only person who've ever done that haha~ Ah I wrote a lot didn't I, cause first time! Lolllll~ I'm hoping that you'll invite me to your wedding aha! Really hope you'll find a good girl hah, cause you deserve one :)

Ah I think that's about it, thank you all for being a part of the most brilliant memories I have. If I'm given a choice, I hope to be able to stay in Hong Wen with you guys just like that. Love and miss you all. Really.
:)

My Secret Dream

2011-09-25T18:19:00.004+08:00

273rd post

Before sleeping last night, I was reading tweets as usual. 'By the way, tvN's Star Hunt has extended its deadline to 9 Oct! ...'

That caught my eye and I cont' to read on, only to realise that tvN, Cube Ent (Beast, 4 Minute, G.NA) and some other company are looking for 10 finalists to take part in some Korean competition like Superstar K3, 2 from Singapore. Top 100 from each country will be chosen to go for local auditions and then the final 2.

Just two days ago, I watched a video of a female idol ( Minah ) my age being able to share the history of her fandom to her idol, Yunho ( DBSK ) who also appeared on the same show. She even got to perform a dance tribute for him, and with him ( and Changmin ). I was so so envious, and honestly, really happy as well, as though part of my dream came true.

It felt like, ah, so this isn't that far-fetched a dream.

I've liked watching dances since young, especially hip hop.

I love the strength the beats give me,
and it's a huge wow to me when people are able to grasp the beats accurately and perform their dances powerfully like Eunhyuk and Taemin. I love watching them dance, really.

It's only until I liked Kpop that I started learning those dances on my own. And it's actually these dances that shaped me to be more and more perfectionist.
In getting the exact moves, at the exact beats.

I believe a general / recommended guideline to your future job is what you enjoy doing ( in your free time ) cause I can't bear doing sth I don't enjoy for a living.

I thought about what is it that I enjoy doing. Apart from teaching, writing and reading, I truly like ( even look forward to ha ) learning Kpop dances and going Kbox ( haha ).

I thought about a lot of other stuff, the crazy imagination of going on KSJ, was almost ready to prepare for the video, until I spent the whole afternoon researching about the 2 Sporean JYP trainees' contract and lifestyle of a trainee. Found a thread of a ( possibly SM ) trainee answering queries even.

Those really made me go ah, better not.

I cannot imagine having to go to the gym daily. It's a physical thing that I cannot overcome with sheer perseverance given my chronic dermatitis ( sensitive skin condition ).
I cannot imagine being screamed at in dance rooms just because my hand is raised slightly lower. That will kill my interest in it.
I cannot imagine having training from 7am to 10pm daily.
I cannot imagine being forbidden to eat and drink after 7pm ( not even a single drop of water ) and cont' training.
I cannot imagine having someone follow me everywhere, including going to the toilet.
I cannot imagine having to train for 6 years without a guarantee of debuting.

Lastly, I don't think I can bear to let go of my freedom for such a long time.

I know writing all these sound crazy, but this is a secret dream of mine, haha.

If I'm a born healthy Korean, I'd most probably have chosen this route. I'd rather not have to go to school.

Oh wells, God, You've gotta let me meet the SJ boys and chat with them face to face in Heaven at least haha~

Prayer

2011-09-13T00:38:00.001+08:00

272nd post

Came to me during ULG Prayer.

'Dead to Sin, Alive in Christ

1 What shall we say then? Are we to remain in sin so that grace may increase?
2 Absolutely not! How can we who died to sin still live in it?'

How true. How can we be the children of God by sinning continuously?

Call for help. Serious help

2011-08-07T15:01:00.002+08:00

271st post

I don't think I've ever been stressed academically before, like now.

Even though there were some modules which I didn't know how to pass, somehow I just won't really be that worried so long as it's sth that can be studied.

Things are different now due to the heavy emphasis on practicals, ESP my core module of 8 credit units - 70 percent on prac T.T

I don't think anyone I know can understand the fear I have for practicals. It's been with me since the first lab lesson I attended way back in P4. And I always remember being the redundant, or even burden for the group whenever we conducted experiments, like seeing how magnets when hung freely, react to the various materials etc.

This continued to haunt me during my secondary school days, when I only got 20 percent for a chemistry practical and was being singled out in class.

And now, being much more difficult with having to use equiments called ophthalmoscope and biomicroscope to check health of different parts of the eyes.

It doesn't help when I'm probably the only one who can't see and draw the stuff required and the prac test is next next week and there're only 2 prac sessions before that.

I think I've never really ranted about academics here for the past two years, but this is kinda freaking me out cause I'll have to do all these scary things for the next 1.5 years continuously. 2.5 if I fail this module cause we aren't allowed to proceed to year 3.
I've never expected myself to experience such a thing too.

Maybe this is really a test of faith since I've never really needed as much help and assurance as now academically.

God you've really gotta help me please. Please take away the dread and fear in me whenever I think about the next year. It's near unbearable

2011-08-01T09:10:00.000+08:00

270th post

If Christianity believes in reincarnation, I'd most probably be that of Thomas.

And maybe a lil of Paul.

Oh my, help me please God

One place everyone wants to be at is probably their own funerals.

2011-07-24T21:59:00.003+08:00

269th post

This hols I'll be doing video messages to be played during my funeral.
Don't worry, I'll not take my life, neither do I dare to do so haha.

It's been sth I wanna do for a real long time, since last year or even longer.

And it's during such a time that you've quite a good idea who are the leads of your life.

Just bear with me during the funeral yeah, last time already haha.

Dear Lord,
All I ask for is that I'll be safe in Your hands, facing the Judgment Seat of Christ and not just the Great White Throne.
And can you let me hug Jesus please hehehe ^^

Wanna say thank you so so much for dying on the Cross for me, for letting me enter Heaven, for this salvation, for all the blessings, for loving this wretch who's still struggling to change.

Shouting Out

2011-07-04T14:41:00.001+08:00

268th post

Just a shout out to some people. Of which Most aren't reading haha.

Yap Yingjie: My faithful reader, how great art thou HAHA. Okay lah just wanna say really appreciate this act of yours, though this isn't a blog meant to be read by many since I isn't publicise it or even kept it hidden, it's still encouraging knowing that we can kit via blogs too! The Facebook convos, seeing you around before/after services.. Even more to come when we use textile together! And we can like hang out near my territory wahaha. Annyeong!

Angel: My monkey; Dora has a monkey for her explorations hahaha. Food brings people together, indeed! And as a very mystery based fellow, I only share with people whom I bring so you are privileged HAHA. Though I really don't like ( I'll love to use abhor ) your recent association with bitchiness (the source blabla) and such (haha), I'll still go good-food-hunting with you cause you exceed 1% of trust *laughs* It will be lost if the association with bitchiness increases though!

Gerald: Thanks for the discounted Lion King and artscience museum tickets!
'Actually the first person I thought of was you, but since I've 5tickets I thought maybe I should make it a LG outing, but I'm afraid you'll feel uncomfortable since it's all guys... I only wanna invite people who can appreciate it...'
Thanks a lot, for placing me on the 'priority list' and thinking so well of me. You're probably the only person who does that apart from Eugenia.
Though I don't think I deserve it, I'm utterly, thankful for such a friend like you; Talented, witty litty friend :)

Albin Tan: My 02 HPY! Thank you so much for being in 02, the only person I can go to for help academically. Your willingness to share and teach is really rare, and I always enjoy hanging out with you and Koksoon! That's hard to come by too haha. I'm looking forward to working for you! *laughs*

2011-06-17T01:24:00.003+08:00

265th post

I rarely bless outta obligation, like for what, unless it's like farewell *laughs* So please don't doubt it, whoever is reading this ha.

To Save A Life was not bad, though it's not better than Xmen for sure as claimed by Leanne haha. Chris saved the show, I think. And the subtle representations such as change of hairstyle signifying change of beliefs were good too, and exposing the idea of earning salvation.

Throughout the movie it felt like.. maybe Enhan thought the same way as Roger? And I wonder how many replicas of them are there out there. I hope some were at the movie.

'Why is everyone leaving this earth'

2011-06-15T01:37:00.005+08:00

264th post

Has been 4 months since I last posted sth, and this time round it's actually quite heavy, haha.

Just attended the wake of Yuwen's Mum. Honestly, I don't really know her, only seen her once and chatted a lil when we were having steamboat at her place. Somehow, it felt like her mum always looked at her with loving eyes. As in seriously, even when she smiled it gave me that kinda feel, you know when you say 慈祥.

And suddenly, she passed away with an unknown reason.

When I was affirming Yuwen during the previous camp, she cried and said she cries easily whenever people says such stuff to her cause she's a words person. As I thought about this, I wonder how bad it is for her right now as she thinks about what her mum said to her, what she said to her mum, the last words before she left all of a sudden.

After our Christian service, we stepped outside and as I looked back, I saw Yuwen's Dad stand beside the coffin, looking at her Mum.
It seemed he wanted to caress his wife, but the glass is in the way.

It seemed he wanted to show his love once again, but death is in the way.

It wasn't just a look; it was with longing,
regrets, inexpressible love.

Endearment.

Tears were welling up as I saw that.
I wonder, how painful is that.

Now I truly feel like telling my parents how much I love and appreciate them.

As I sat there, I thought, what if it's my mum instead. And I nearly teared immediately.
And at that moment, God reminded me that's how Yuwen's feeling right now. Or even worse.

I wanna bless her so much more, but due to lack of cash and income for this month, I'm hampered. But I'll bless her in a continuous manner. I wanna do so. It's probably the least that I can do.

Thought to myself, if it's my mum, I probably can't stop crying. I love her too much I guess. And reliance too. For support. And regrets, cause I've yet pampered her as much as I want to.

Dear God, please at least let me show my mummy how much I love her. Please let me treat her like how she treated me too, her favourite. And most importantly, please let her receive genuine salvation first. Please. God please. I promise to put in extra effort in doing my best in practising WWJD. Yet not to earn salvation, but a true regeneration

2 Timothy 2

2011-02-14T21:00:00.003+08:00

263rd post

Was reading 2 Timothy 2 last night during QT.
Powerful, wise last words; advices.

'16 Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly.'

How true.

Can't wait for the coming hols when I can get into my focused learning mode.

Apologetics, Intelligent Design, Christian Ethics, Shroud of Turin here I come, soon!

A kind of warmth that is beyond blood relations

2011-02-13T11:01:00.004+08:00

262nd post

Yesterday, I confirmed a trait of mine.
I'm biased towards people whom I haven't seen for a long time. Or should I say tend to treat them much better cause their presence are missed haha.

That's also why I don't understand how people can see a person every single day.

I've experienced it once [ meeting straight for a week or 8 outta 9 days or sth ] with a friend whom I classify under Unclassified in my Friendship Hierarchy and in the end, both of us confessed the sian-ness to each other haha.

And this explains my wish of finding one whom I just have to meet every 2 other days heh. Angel and Shayne were like ?! but oh wells, I have faith *laughs*

Anyway, felt really blessed by Hanyang's Mum yest too.
For the first time in my life, I received such a 'fat' red packet. Not even my parents or any relatives have blessed me in such a manner.

Financial blessing is indeed to be thankful for, but more importantly, Hanyang told me his Mum wanted to write a letter to me. She didn't cause she doesn't know how to write my name haha. Also, she kept saying she's very grateful to me over the phone though it's really nothing.

Ah, that touched me so much.
Think I'll tear if she really did write it too.

So thankful for her. So thankful to God for allowing me to experience such a kind of warmth that is beyond blood relations.

Thank You Lord.

2011-01-24T20:45:00.001+08:00

261st post

Plain honesty and openess.
Reliability / trustworthy.
Personal.

Today, I really understand what it means.

2011-01-23T18:17:00.003+08:00

260th post

It was great how I could finally have the chance to share certain things I'm so.. convicted of myself yesterday? Haha.

Well nothing much, just that

1. My good friend / best friend should not be a sanguine
2. I'll prefer MelChol to MelPhleg, though the latter is fine still
3. I'm not possessive; I'm fine with my good friend / best friend meeting up with others BUT when they are with me, it has to be one to one - that is real quality time spent to me

And one more thing;
During special occasions, I'll place extra emphasis on point 3.
Thank God that He's given me a 'progressive' nature, if you know what I mean.

[ My Sis' birthday is coming up, haha ]

Anyway, when people say God is more than enough for them, do they really know what they are talking about? [ No 'shooting' intended; I've heard this quite a few times ]

If God is more than enough, why do people have other desires?
Desire for companionship, desire for material possessions, desire for achievements, and so on.

I know the standard solution is the God-shaped hole in our hearts - and I acknowledge that - but I don't think that is a conclusive answer.

Even as we acknowledge God and receive Him as our Saviour, can we really say we have no other desires at all?

When we are tempted we have unholy thoughts, and here comes the desire to satisfy our carnal nature. And this, leads to us carrying out the sins.

With desire comes action.
Today, I really understand what it means.

Talk about tears

2011-01-16T18:48:00.003+08:00

259th post

Tears of anger are probably the more familiar ones, along with laughter.
Tears of sadness due to being unfairly treated.. those are really rare.

Yest's service made me realised that it's easier to pray for someone whom you love. The absence of stress over worry of words to be said feels real good; there's probably a higher dependency on the Spirit for guidance I guess.

Also, I came to realise that I really hate having my plans changed and people not being efficient.
I got a lil frustrated, more choleric, and less careful of my words. I hope I didn't scare or hurt.

I don't seem to know how to love unconditionally.
But once again, is there even such unconditional love, except for One?

Parents, no.
They need your physical or mental support.
Siblings, no.
'We're blood-related, have to see each other everyday also.'
Friends, no.
Projects, company, entertainment..

, and not ?; It's not even a question.

One of the biggest lies on earth is probably loving someone unconditionally.

KOREA. TAIWAN. US.

2011-01-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

258th post

Suddenly felt like blogging aha.

Was reading the archives of my other blog which I used to update daily and realised how interestingly.. different it is. I think growth is probably the best answer.

Did discover some more intelligent quotes though, haha.

Recently, I've decided to be more frugal; I'm saving up for..

KOREA. TAIWAN. US. :D

And I'm gonna make sure that the transit for the US trip is Taiwan so I can gan diao 2 at a go muahaha.

Xiaoming told me 7-10 days is insufficient to fully experience life in the States; he said I'll need at least a month, oh my gosh.

After estimation, think I'll needa save at least 7K for everything.

I'll do it. May I persevere this time round.

Also, I've arrived at the conclusion that it's easier for me to save up than to do proper work at home. Ill discipline get away!

Think I successfully hindered an outbreak this Monday, but cause I'm eating more heaty stuff it seems to be getting back argh.
Dear Father, please please please I beg of You no outbreak, pleeeeeaseeeeee.

Currently reading Divine Comedy Vol. 1: Inferno.
In terms of fear induced, or should I say reminded, Pilgrim's Progress seems to be better; but in terms of depth - references to historical and mythological events, Divine Comedy is definitely The One.

Ah salvation salvation, how complicated you can get.

B. E. D.

2010-12-17T17:32:00.005+08:00

257th post

Midnight consultation; million dollar questions.
Actually now to think of it, I think I didn't think enough before I answer, or maybe it's a midnight flaw.

Cheque is coming, awesome.

Angel's probably shopping like siao now in Korea. I want my albums.

Alright, may the search begin.

G. Faith.?

2010-11-07T16:27:00.003+08:00

256th post

Yesterday was pretty d.
Mind boggling, tough to comprehend.

R-ting I think.

But still thanks, dad.

"Believing in the Lord is not merely acknowledging Him but also doing His commandments; for simply acknowledging Him is solely a matter of thought, arising from somewhat of the understanding; but doing His commandments is also a matter of acknowledgment from the will. Man's mind consists of understanding and will; and as the understanding deals with thinking and the will with doing, so when man's acknowledgment is merely from the thought of the understanding he comes to the Lord with only half of his mind; but when there is doing he comes with all of it; and this is to believe."

Personal Exploration

2010-10-31T12:00:00.003+08:00

255th post

Decided to come back here after such a long time of writing at somewhere else haha.

Hectic week.
But yesterday is memorable.

Started off with being late for [ an hour for ] Basic Doctrine II cause of my last min chionging for some birthday stuff. But I won't be next week! Christology and Soteriology woots :D

Really thank God for Jeremiah - for answering my questions as always haha, and also for praying for me. Vision.
Believe it or not, I've waited for almost half a year since ID 2010 *laughs*

Finally had some time to reflect and talking to Him as I walked home yest. The kind of desire to spend time alone after a crazily busy week was real intense and accomplishment of it is shiok aha heh.

Salvation related issues are bothering me.
Actually, have always been.

Hide & Seek

2010-09-18T11:15:00.001+08:00

253rd post

Try finding me somewhere else.

It should be easy, haha.

Work work work

2010-09-04T14:17:00.003+08:00

252nd post

In the midst of tests and exams but honestly, I'm not stressed by them; stressed by work instead hurhur.

Being a Chung Cheng student, I thought the Swimming Complex outside my school was the Singapore Swimming Club which I was supposed to reach at 0930 this morn to help out with a workshop, but actually it's opposite DHS instead craaaap.

Was totally clueless so decided to ask the guy at the counter for directions, with just 10 more mins or so. He's busy answering some phone call so felt prompted to just ask this Mum with her son who's about to attend a swimming lesson.

And know what, she offered to give me a ride and I was like 'Oh my gad really? Thanks a lot!'

Really gotta thank God for this cause if not I'll have to walk like siao judging from the route she took.

Thank God the workshop went pretty smoothly and that Mr Kien drove me to Lavender too heh.

Oh yes thank God for Charlene, emcee for the Dengue Roadshow which I'm the assistant, who's been driving me outta camps.

Thank God for allowing Victoria to spot me and drive me into the Mandai Camp which I had a real tough time locating and seriously, it's virtually beyond my limit to walk into the camp - and I can walk quite a lot actually. You'll know what I mean if you drive in there or sth.

Thank God that papers so far are still okay. Though I'm aware that some answers were wrong, I'm just gonna leave everything to God.

Gonna be helping out with a birthday party full of kids later - 20 or even more and trust me, I like kids but not when they start making lots of noise, or even cry like oh saviour save meeeeeeeeee.

And the best thing is I'll be left alone to settle the treasure hunt and fossil digging [ which is very challenging ], for an hour. With the parents around I think. Oh my gad.

Admit I'm kinda worried about it, but Lord, You've really gotta help me handle everything and esp esp the kidsssss. Please let everything flow nicely, and that the kids will just be obedient and listen to me. [ Help me to speak loudly and get their attention heh ] May the magic show start promptly, and just help me do a good job. Thanks Dad.

'Who are you closest to in the group?'

2010-08-14T13:45:00.002+08:00

251st post

Angel asked me a few times before,
'Who are you closest to in the group?'

Me: Hmmm I don't know, I don't think I'm close to any.

Angel: Then last time in Youth leh?

Me: Hmmm ehhhhh I won't say I'm close to any too.

Angel: *mentions a few names*

Me: Not really. I'll just acc to / share more to my shepherds lor. [ Yingjie don't smirk *laughs* ]

Stark similarity haha

Another convo between Heechul [ SJ, right ] and his previous girlfriend:

G: How much do you trust me?
HC: 1%.
G: What is this.. Then what about Donghae? Or Hankyung? Or Kibum? Or Mithra? [ All his closest buds ]
HC: 100%
G: What is this!! Why am I only 1%!!
HC: Even if it's 1% it's a lot of trust. I don't have the interest in trusting in people.

Guess I'm just not someone who will, or even can, get super close to anyone.

But I'm not as jialat as Heechul lah haha.
I just find it so so tough to give my entire [ 100% ] trust to a human being. [ So I kinda doubt Heechul when he said 100% ha. ]

Or.. maybe until I find someone real similar to me [ eg MelPhleg and not too sang *laughs* ], trustworthy, real comfortable with, genuine, doesn't really give a chicken feather about the things I don't really give a chicken feather, similar interests and sensitive ba haha.

Yay.

2010-08-14T12:56:00.004+08:00

250th post

Thank God for blessing me with the Roadshow Assistant job yesterday hehehe :D
My interview was like just 6+ hours before I received the confirmation text? Amazing God.

Really gotta thank Him cause initially I thought the chances of me getting the job is real low given that the pay is much higher than norm - 20 bucks per hour, and the commitment needed, though for about a year, is quite low.

And the cool thing is the interviewer's actually into a freaking cool career - kids entertainment. And he's like recruiting me into his company too and the thing is, the commitment needed is rather low once again hahaha.

All these happened just a few days after I asked God for financial blessings cause like what I always say, my parents always puts me on survivor mode - and my tuition income's gonna stop once my cousin finishes O's, and that's just about 3 months to go - but I still wanna do ministry so yeah heh. Thank You awesome God!

Walking away

2010-08-10T10:49:00.003+08:00

249th post

Undivided attention.
Long quality conversations.

I feel loved and time spent meaningful when I get them,
and vice versa.

And that's the reason. I think.

'It's not that I don't wanna talk to you; I don't know what to talk to you about.'

And that's why, thank You Father for being able to comprehend.

2010-08-03T19:35:00.003+08:00

248th post

Honestly, no one knows why.
And that's why, thank You Father for being able to comprehend.

As much as the other party doesn't know what's hurting, You do.
As much as the other party repeats and probably still doesn't know, You do.
As much as I don't know how long this will cont', You do.

As much as it's hurtful, it's tiring, You help me to love and forgive. Please.

I admit I'm afraid of it gradually becoming a phobia.

This is what doing life together should mean.

2010-08-01T19:39:00.003+08:00

247th post

Thank God Sermon D went okay, and really thank God that He led me in the preparation; one particular analogy that He gave me is sth I'll always remember. It'll be more effective if I can say it in person haha.

Thank God that I'm shortlisted for an interview tomorrow - will reveal more soon haha.

Thank God that I made it to Round 2 of General Affair Quiz; I really want [ any one of ] the top 5 prizes *laughs*

Thank God for the time spent with Yuwen last night after service; love talking / sharing beyond the surface. This is what doing life together should mean.

Thank God that the very lil discipline I have is growing a lil heh.

Thank God for always letting things achieve a balance haha *winks to Papa*

Thank You Father, for Your Grace that I'm even breathing right now.

2010-07-27T20:34:00.004+08:00

246th post

After reading some stuff, I get to appreciate how blessed I am again.
Thank You Father, for Your Grace that I'm even breathing right now.

Thank God there're much lesser lessons these two weeks, esp the long ones heh.
After one and a half more week of nonsense and it's YOG break woots.
Time to treat myself hehehe.

Thank God for my classmates who's been helping me in my work, esp Alvin and Yong Teck. Thanks, friends, for being altruistic *laughs*

Sermon D.
Lord, please guide me in this.

Love changes people.

2010-07-25T17:19:00.002+08:00

245th post

'Love changes people. If you’re not changed, you’re not in love. Period.'
-Zachary

'If you can be 100% sure that God exists, how can there be room for faith?'
-Jolene

These two sentences have been on a replay mode on my mind haha.

Amazing Grace

2010-07-18T17:08:00.001+08:00

244th post

Sometimes I really am impressed by my Sis' patience.
I used to think it's probably cause I seem colder / don't seem to be as concerned but after pondering over it, I realised it's due to lack of l.
But I wonder why it feels like it's easier to l people in the past.
Yesterday, Xiuwen was asking if anyone has the book 'Love Beyond Reason' and I was like eh, that's the first Christian Living book I read. [ Thanks Joy haha. ]
The price tag and the vulnerable parts are worth remembering.

'Honesty builds trust. Trust builds friendship.
...becomes increasingly vulnerable...'
[ This is not from the book ]

Yeah that's real true and guess that's what most people are afraid of.

Actually, it's a valid fear isn't it. Imagine being in a foreign territory unarmed.
That, is scary.

Revelation: He has always been in that state.

We've been rejecting, resisting, doubting.. hurting Him. Everyday.

Yet He still L us. Agape.
That, is amazing.

Grace showed. Grace to be shown.

I've been looking for an answer but it doesn't seem to be available, at the moment.

2010-07-14T14:10:00.002+08:00

243rd post

I've been looking for an answer but it doesn't seem to be available, at the moment.

Yeah I'm reluctant but what has to be done, has to be done.

2010-07-12T19:59:00.004+08:00

242nd post

Thank God for being able to catch Toy Story with Valencia and Yong Hui, and Eclipse with Angel, Jolene and Ryan last Friday.

Thank God for the WFL last Sat.
Was so happy when Jeremiah started showing pics of archaeological findings and brief descriptions; my areas of interests yay.
Thank God for him who answered my questions too heh.

Thank God for helping me sell 4 outta the 5 2AM albums I got to see if I can get their autographs heh.
Admit that I was greedy [ Sorry Lord! ], He was still so gracious to help me - it was a miracle cause it was just 2 days before the showcase and there were still CDs in the HMV stores and moreover mine was scratched [ 0% of chance of getting autograph ].

Thank God for the ticket to go SSS yesterday to see 2AM live.
Initially, I wasn't entitled to it due to some errors in processing of orders for the merchandises and there were only 50 [ complimentary ] tickets. But cause last min some people cmi so I was the 2nd last fellow to be given the ticket heh! And to be honest, based on my previous experiences of attending such Kpop Boybands' events, the one yesterday was considered real good le and I'm certain I got a much better view as compared to the possible one at the showcase haha.

Yeah I'm reluctant, but what has to be done, has to be done.

Remarkable, remarkable.

2010-07-08T09:23:00.003+08:00

241st post

What went through my mind was

If this Shroud is really the burial cloth, then

There really was a Man by the Name of Jesus who lived on Earth. And He was crucified. And that means the Gospels are pretty much credible given the various details. So are the miracles [ Walking on water, feeding thousands, healing of leprosy, raising the dead] then. Which can't possibly be performed by a mere human.

This is, incredible.

I'm not resistant to change; I just don't fancy it.

2010-07-04T19:50:00.006+08:00

240th post

Had a sudden urge to blog. A different kind. But I don't really know what to write. Or rather, I don't know how to put them into words accurately.

*struggles for a min*

Okay to start it off, quite some changes have been taking place. Well, to / for me at least. It feels like.. things are put on the replay mode. Which is bad.

Another thing is I realise I really don't like to do certain things and I seriously dislike being forced to do them.

I don't think I'm just refusing like a kid with a stubborn jaw; I. really. don't. like. it.
I don't know if you can imagine the intensity, but I'm sure He does.

And I believe we're given different roles cause we're wired differently for different purposes. I'm not saying we shouldn't try other stuff, I'm just more concerned about effectiveness esp when a life is at stake.

A few days ago, I posted this as my FB status:

The only way to really know how others can get hurt by you is when you get hurt in the very same manner.

Think He wants me to know that as I do certain things thinking cause it's just me, it actually hurt some people - probably not just once even.

All these struck me when I experienced how hurtful it can be, twice.
Felt so inferior, esp when it's someone who's.. pretty amazing?
I can't find a suitable adjective.

This resulted in some kinda phobia as well; doubt it can be understood though.

Randomization™: My love language of touch is catching up more and more I feel, don't know it's a good thing or not haha.

In Awe of You

2010-06-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

239th post

Thank God for blessing me with 2 lucky draw rewards; $10 KFC Voucher [ SP Library ] and $50 Hypermarket Voucher [ Kraft ].

Though it's just 10 bucks, my family gotta enjoy the food just now and quality time spent yay :)

Thank God for my Mum who's decided to give me half of the Hypermarket Voucher in cash heh - can buy more stuff from Tecman le woots.

Thank God for being amazingly gracious; so far, my MST results are satisfactory esp Math cause I thought I'll fail or borderline pass haha. Thank God I got a B for it and A for GENOPT which's my core module heh.

Thank God for my new Math teacher who's very grandfatherly [ *laughs* ] and patient.

Thank God for the chances that I can get to look at the various types of cells through microscopes during my A&PC lab lessons; love being in awe of His creation.

There has to be a Intelligent Designer.

2010-06-15T13:56:00.003+08:00

238th post

Prays, 'Dear God, I pray that You'll heal this com cause I really need it to do my projects and CRS.. I know it's like 99.9 % - okay maybe 98% that it'll just not work.. [ Inner voice: Why not trust in God, in Him all things are possible.. ]'

*com lights up with a blue screen and functions as per normal*

'OMGOSH THIS IS INCREDIBLE.'

This was what happened 15mins ago.
Real amazing cause my siblings and I've been trying to switch on this com since last Friday when it shut down on it's own as I was Facebook-ing after MST - THANK GOD FOR HEALING IT HAHA IT'S FEENALLY™ WORKINGGGG.

Thank God for giving me a greater understanding of Jesus Among Other Gods by Ravi Zacharias just now as I was doing some notes of my learnings.

Thank God for His Grace in sustaining me through my first MST in SP. Learnt that I really do need more self discipline; not just in studies but other aspects as well.

Thank God for healing my Sis when she's alone in Taiwan.
It was so comforting to know that she got well the next day after praying for her cause not only did it show God's Grace, she could experience healing and that we didn't have to worry for her too.

Thank God for the stayover at Angel's place last Sat with Xiuwen, Yuwen and Zejun; a time of fellowship and getting deeper.
'What do you see yourself doing in 5 years' time?'
I could feenally™ answer this with a clearer goal, but Lord, I still do really need more directions from You. Please cont' to open and shut doors for me according to Your Will.

Thank God for the movie [ Prince of Persia ] outing with Xuhong and Yuwen yesterday; didn't know the similarities we had back in secondary school *laughs*

Thank God for Xiuwen who gave me Mere Christianity by C.S Lewis. Was, and am still, so happy hehehe.

Thank God for Jeremy, Reynard and Ryan for lending me their books; my hols' gonna be fruitful yay muahaha.

List Of Books To Be Read

~~Jesus Among Other Gods~~
Why You Act The Way You Do
The Pilgrim's Progress
The Case For Faith
Growing Deep In God
Mere Christianity
Case For Christ [ Again + Notes Taking ]

Lord, may this hols be a great time of knowing more of Your Truth, and in depth as well. Help me to utilize my time wisely such that it'll be a real fulfilling hols. Amen.

2010-05-23T19:48:00.002+08:00

237th post

Thank God for Friday; real enjoyable cause got to invade Topshop and Dorothy Perkins muahaha. Time alone rocks, time shopping alone rocks too heh.

Thank God for today - rest day at home, whole day yay :D

Thank God for the 3 lives - Xuhong, Syewai and Max - saved yesterday!
Thank God for answering my prayers too!

Lord, I pray that they'll experience You big time this week and be connected well to the group.
More souls to be saved yeah!

2010-05-14T17:24:00.002+08:00

236th post

Thank God for no school today yay :D

Thank God for helping me cut down on my spending on food this week - Dora wants to start saving up!

Thank God for the person who gave me a Toblerone by putting it in my bag on Wednesday; it's very nice of the person cause I was still kinda sian-ed by the fact that the Cocoa Sales thingy at FC6 ended before I could get anything and I think it's someone from our unit haha.

Thank God for the time spent with my Sis just now at her school - lunch together :)
Thank God for the chance to tell her more about Christianity when she shared to me about her wondering what's her purpose in life.

Thank God for the chances to pray for her as well; really hope that as she experiences answered prayers she'll wanna know God even more!

2010-05-08T09:28:00.008+08:00

235th post

Thank God for the extra one week's time to brush up on my IDEA Project; though it probably means higher expectations, with God we can do it muahaha.

Thank God for helping and leading me in preparing and carrying out the Sermon D on Wednesday during CG; glad to hear that they learnt sth and thank God for the various encouragements given by them - Tony, Qichen, Reynard, Jeremy. [FYI, my group has only 2 girls incl. me hurhur.]

Thank God for The Word given to me during worship; will always remember it!

Thank God for The Pilgrim's Progress when I was stuck in the train yesterday; got to learn about the 3 forms of righteousness of God and not to be forgetful when we achieve successes.

2010-04-27T09:09:00.002+08:00

234thy post

Thank God that my Human Biochem lessons have been ending 1hour 15mins earlier for 2 consecutive Mondays heh. Hope this continues for the whole sem / all his lessons! *laughs*

Thank God for the fellowship with Angel, Jolene, Hanyang, Jeremy and Ryan on Sunday early morn at Laselle; it propelled me to think deeper / search more to know what's really my passion and what I wanna do for God in future. [ In the midst! ]

Thank God for my group for my Human Biochem and Human Anatomy projects.

Thank God for my Study Bible once again; I really love it heh :D

2010-04-23T10:48:00.003+08:00

233rd post

Thank God for the cancellation of 1 hour of tutorial and 3 hours of practical today - no school yay woots!

Thank God for the last CG yesterday, enjoyed the interesting flow and teaching - sth I needa learn and grow from.

Thank God for the awesome teaching by Pastor Wayne which Angel shared with me during shepherding; really love it and thank God for her who actually went to find a teaching related to my growth aspects :)

I'm gonna wear the white band starting from today onwards!

Prayer Walk

2010-04-20T20:32:00.003+08:00

232nd post

' 2By this gospel you are saved, if you hold firmly to the word I preached to you. Otherwise, you have believed in vain.

3For what I received I passed on to you as of first importance[a]: that Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, 4that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day according to the Scriptures, 5and that he appeared to Peter,[b] and then to the Twelve. 6After that, he appeared to more than five hundred of the brothers at the same time, most of whom are still living, though some have fallen asleep. 7Then he appeared to James, then to all the apostles, 8and last of all he appeared to me also, as to one abnormally born. '

- 1 Corinthians 15:2-7

Thank God for this verse [v2] He so graciously gave me during Prayer Walk at SP yesterday; it's really refreshing and amazing everytime God gives me a verse that speaks to me specifically - it reminds me of how real His existence is.

Father, give me a burden for CLS, for SP. I really want and need it.

'Step out of your comfort zone.'

Mustard-Seed-Faith

2010-04-17T10:52:00.003+08:00

231st post

Steamboat Unit CG on Thursday; probably the most stressful meal I ever had. Thank God for communal chopsticks.

Thank God for blessing me with a whole day home yesterday; time alone simply rocks.
Without it I'll just burn out.

Thank God for my CG and Unit. Really.

Thank God in advance for the service and hangout time later which I'm looking forward to, as always heh.

Father Lord, I truly pray that all the fears will be taken away in Your mighty name. Give me strength, give me assurance; I want that mustard-seed-faith.
Remind me that I can always delight in the comfort that You're with me all the time and that I'm not the only one / on my own.
Amen.

2010-04-13T16:22:00.002+08:00

230th post

After studying my timetable more carefully, I really thank God for blessing me with quite a good one and that I'll still be able to tutor my cousin - my only source of income *laughs*

Thank God that the people in my class that I know so far are pretty nice and friendly :)
Looking forward to knowing them more!

Thank God that yesterday's Orientation ended about half hour earlier too and that I could get a seat with that heavy bag heh.

We Represent God.

2010-04-11T10:30:00.005+08:00

229th post

Thank God for Jeremy, Ryan and Hanyang for sending me home yesterday; walking all the way from PS to Lavender till 0205. Crazy right. Really appreciate it!

Thank God I always reach home safely too~

Thank God for Every Young Woman's Battle; most important lesson learnt: I represent God.

Thank God for my first study bible ever and I got 30% discount again hehehe :p
Really enjoy reading it and knowing much more about the Word - the deeper meanings and explanations etc - thrills me heh (^_^)

2010-04-08T12:35:00.002+08:00

228th post

Really like the 5 points William Craig made.

Interesting rebuttal.

Finished reading Case for Christ and it's really good - thumbs up.
Consolidation yay.

Gotta know William Craig too and he stunned me the most, especially after watching him debate.

I don't know if I'm biased, but seriously, I don't understand what John Shook's talking about; his opening statement of all the atheist bla bla was like, how's that related to the core subject of the argument?

Oh wells. Off to Tecman soon to collect 4 Case of Christ and check out William Craig's books heh.

2010-04-06T12:26:00.003+08:00

227th post

Thank God for the wonderful blessing yesterday; 30% discount off Every Young Woman's Battle [ I've been wanting to get that book for a long time ] + 1 year free Tecman membership cause I'm a tutor heh *laughs*

Thank God for the dinner @ Citylink Xin Wang Cafe too - great time of Q&A with Ryan and Jolene; learnt a lot.

Thank God I've gained quite some head knowledge while reading Case for Christ - will consolidate my learnings after I finish the book heh.

2010-04-05T15:12:00.002+08:00

226th post

Fasted from blogging for last week, back with reignited passion for reading Christian Lit.

Was reminded of Jacq's prayer for me to reach out to intellectuals during Level Up, and recognised / remembered the need to really know about God to do so.

Reading Case for Christ now, and thank God for Ryan who answered my various questions last night.
[ And more to come I believe heh ]

270310, 1122.

2010-03-28T20:38:00.002+08:00

225th post

Yesterday, I finished reading the whole bible.
270310, 1122.

It's nothing amazing but seriously, I felt this strong excitement - even now and I pray that it'll cont' to fill me always - in reading the bible all over again and study it in much, much greater depth.

I really can't wait to start learning so much more of the individual apostles esp Paul, and be really rooted in the Word such that I'm always assured that all His promises are Yes and Amen.

I wanna remember what happened when Jesus was walking on this very same Earth that we're living in, how wise and humble he was, how he impacted and touched so many lives..

Looking forward to how He's gonna lead and guide me in SP too!
'Jesus You are the Saviour of my soul!'

2010-03-15T10:48:00.002+08:00

224th post

Thank God for SP 2 who celebrated my 17th birthday one day earlier, and thank God for the delicious ice cream cake heh :D

Thank God for the birthday treat by Magdalene, birthday lunch with Chia Wee Wee and movie Kaiji treat by QianHWEE :D

Thank God for my siblings, QianHWEE and HanWEE, for their gift and thank God for my Sis who was so nice to queue on behalf of Sally :D

Thank God for Sally who sponsored my RDD album heh :)

Thank God for the last shepherding with Fiona; had a wonderful time of sharing too :)

Last Shepherdings

2010-03-06T08:59:00.002+08:00

223rd post

Thank God for the wonderful last shepherdings with my three sheep - Ziying, Sherly and Shanisca - yesterday :)

Decided to write all I wanna say in the farewell cards instead of telling them in person cause I think it might very well end up like the last farewell for Joy and Lestari when I just broke down, and yeah haha.

Oh wells, gonna start joining the SP group from today onwards and though I'll miss my CCHMS and DHS girls, I'll give my best in PolyDins.

yinghui hwaiting!

Last Service in Youth

2010-02-28T10:45:00.003+08:00

222nd post

Thank God for answering my prayers made yesterday :)

Last service in youth yesterday, really felt like crying when praise started cause I've been going for the youth service since Sec 1 so it suddenly felt like 'Oh man, why do I only truly treasure and appreciate it till the last one'.
So I told myself I must be in the service throughout so I can commit it to my long term memory haha.

Thank God for making it so wonderful; touched by the film and the song.
And I gotta sing my fave songs heh.

Thank God for Yingjie's farewell card too; really love it :)

Ah, tertiary service next week.

New environment, new people.

Same God :)

2010-02-27T10:47:00.002+08:00

221st post

Thank God for the job-to-be as a Telemarketer!
Really hope to do well for the training and the job itself such that I'll be able to do it for good - no need to find new jobs in future during hols le! :D

Thank God that I've feenally™ settled the first white envelope to be submitted to SP by 020310; there're really many many procedures that are bothering me hurhur.

Thank God for blessing me with a home-cooked meal yesterday; it's been very long since I last ate a meal prepared by my Mum cause she's been working~

2010-02-22T19:58:00.003+08:00

220th post

Thank God for the one-day jobs yesterday [Sales Promoter for Olay at Holland V Guardian] and today [packing with Jasmine, Sharmaine and Desmond]; learnt how tough it could get to earn an income and I should stop spending too much haha.
Thank God for Desmond who helped us to carry all the heavy stuff etc too heh.

Thank God that the withdrawal stuff at NYJ today was so fast - probably just 5 mins - and thank God that I could get back home before 0800 to get my phone which was still charging yay :D

Thank God, also, for my Dad who drove me there :)

2010-02-18T11:54:00.002+08:00

219th post

OMGOSH I'M SO TOUCHED AND HAPPY RIGHT NOW CAUSE I CAN FEENALLY™ USE MY COM AND INTERNETTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU GOD SO SO MUCH :D :D

It's been 2months and 4 days since I can use the internet so I doubt anyone can identify with my past agony and boredom when I stopped working hahaha.

Thank God that my com wasn't really spoilt; it's just some problems with the connection due to wire getting dusty so the 'repair fee' was just 20-30bucks heh :)

Thank God for the wonderful people who lent me their coms when I couldn't use mine: Jasmine [especially], Grace, Ngai Ying, ZiyingSHEEP and Javin :D

Thank God for the two Singtel staff who came just now as well, especially the one who actually made the Broadband service guy on the line thought he's my brother and gave him the temporary password for the Internet- if not I wouldn't be able to use it now hehehe :p

Okay I'm now off to settle ministry stuff le yay!

2010-02-05T14:10:00.001+08:00

218th post

Course: OPTOMETRY

Polytechnic: Singapore Polytechnic

YAYYYYYYY THANK GODDDDDDDDDD :D

2010-02-05T13:54:00.002+08:00

217th post

Currently waiting for appeal results. 5 more mins.

Anyway, thank God for the time I got to spend with my Mum yesterday :D
Went Robinsons, OG [Somerset] and OG [Bugis / Albert Park?] for CNY shopping.
Had Macs for lunch, which is freaking rare, and it seemed to be the first time we were sharing a meal out together hahaha.

So glad to get a new pretty bottle after dropping the former one in the drain.

In short, my Mummy rocks.

Okay 5 mins is up.

2010-01-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

216th post

This, is funny.

Psalm 119:97 (New International Version - UK)
97 Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long

시편 119:97 (Korean Bible)
97 내가 주의 법을 어찌 그리 사랑하는지요 내가 그것을 종일 묵상하나이다

Google's Translation:

How much do I love your law, I'm 97, I said it one day retreat

*laughs*

2010-01-15T10:58:00.002+08:00

215th post

Currently at cousin's house. Just submitted my application.
First choice is NYJ.

Some contributions to the sudden change [from SP's DNHW]:

1. I felt a sense of relief and assurance when I sat down and think of taking the route of JC
2. I was reminded of the prayer Jacq made for me in camp that God will help me in the area of studies
3. I really am quite interested in History [it feels good when your History teacher says you've got the interest and gift hahaha], and Lit as well
4. My parents suggested to give it a try and they won't blame me if I really cmi for 1st year - they will let me go Poly and take the course I want subsequently heh
5. Direct bus of 133 and Dad offers to drive me to school haha

Oh wells, God, I know You will make a way :)
Thank You for blessing my Mummy with the new job too and giving me the courage to share with her my prayer being answered yay :D

2010-01-14T17:35:00.003+08:00

214th post

Thank God for the twelve I don't deserve!
Really very very thankful :D

O' God, please heal my com cause I need it a lot for ministry~
Thank You in advance :)

2010-01-01T14:05:00.003+08:00

213th post

Thank You Lord for 2009.
:)

Was writing in my diary the various great works and miracles God did for me in 2009 this morning and counting my blessings;

Healing me of my sensitive skin such that I don't have to apply cream everyday anymore and rashes on my tummy are gone,
blessing me with the gift of healing,
softening my Mum's heart such that she didn't object to my faith,
my Sis to receive salvation during Christmas service,
blessing me throughout my O's period though I didn't deserve it with only that tiny bit of effort put in,
helping me to be a better daughter and sis,
establish closer relationships with family members,
etc!

He is always so faithful. Really.

Anyway, this is probably the first time I have a great feeling for the start of a new year - maybe it's cause I dont' have to start school in 3 days' time hahaha.

As much as I haven't get back my results, I've kinda decided where to go le heh.
Will cont' to pray through though; God You gotta guide me in making a wise decision yeah!

2009-12-25T14:55:00.002+08:00

212th post

Dear Lord Jesus, You're 2009 years old!
Happy Birthday!

Anyway, THANK YOU SO SO MUCH THAT MY SIS ACCEPTED YOU INTO HER LIFE YESTERDAYYYYYYY! :D

Trusting my Dad, Mum and Brother into Your mighty Hands once again,
Amen!

2009-12-24T17:38:00.002+08:00

210th post

God is really faithful.

These 3 days alone, He has:

1. Healed me of sore throat
2. Prevented me from engaging in illegal activities unknowingly [it don't sound that serious though haha]
3. Assured my Sis and she's going service later YAY
4. Blessed me with a nice superior and a birthday gift
5. Helped me grow closer with my family
6. Softened my Mum's heart and she didn't scold me though I reached home at 0000+ on Monday, or should I say Tuesday heh
7. Went to Lee Minho's fanmeet for free hahaha

THANK YOU :D

2009-12-19T18:12:00.001+08:00

210th post

Thank You Lord.

I'm really determined to bring my family to come and know You!

And thank You so so much, for loving me.
I know I'm not a nobody.
*smiles*

Let go.?

2009-12-13T20:38:00.001+08:00

209th post

Let go?

Let go.

Two ordinary words.
One extraordinary decision.

Yay!

2009-12-11T18:57:00.002+08:00

208th post

Thank God the com is on the way to being fully recovered :D

Thank God so so much, for speaking to me through a verse today - been a long time!
Yay I'm so so happpppyyyy ^^

I wondered why, then realised it's probably due to pride or stubborness.

2009-12-10T10:13:00.004+08:00

207th post

Thank God I can use the com :D
[I really pray that this 'healing' can bring my Sis to Christmas Service and know You.]

Went ECP yesterday with my LG for picnic; something I've never gone for with my family I think. Only went with my Uncle's family once or twice when I was young.

Perhaps this explains why I didn't know that I had to cut the cucumber and tomatoes before going and be the Joke of the Day.

Oh wells, maybe God wanted some comic relief as well.

Anyway, it began to rain [we didn't feel too much of the rain though it seemed pretty heavy cause we were under a tree] as Javin and Fions were cooking halfway.
The 7 of us then prayed rain will stop and I thank God that He really stopped the rain in 3-5 mins as prayed hahaha.

Went toilet with Jasmine and Javin after that and only returned after an hour due to several reasons. One of them would be the long long walks to and fro Macs.

On our way back, we saw this girl, really adorable, trying to balance while learning how to rollerblade. And her Dad was beside her, behind her, always ready to help her up but she just wouldn't reach for the hand.

I wondered why, then realised it's probably due to pride or stubborness.

Cliche as it sounds, it feels like us when we fall and don't wanna ask God for help unless it's really hopeless.

On the other hand, it may also be like God's everlasting presence, and Him always waiting for us to reach out to Him.

Yeah, I need You.

Week of Learning!

2009-12-09T10:17:00.003+08:00

206th post

Thank God I can use the com again ^^

Thank God for Chrystal who lent me those Lit books and notes :D
I can finally understand what's going on in Midsummer Night's Dream - it's easier than To Kill A Mocking Bird I feel heh.

Thank God for GraceDEDE who lent me her Korean notes too :D
Though I'm still trying to remember all the alphabets and the various pronunciation in different positions, I shall work hard and be able to engage in simple conversations by end Jan 2010 hehehe.

Thank God for this Week of Learning!
Before I go for camp and start work, this week shall be a fruitful one with Him woots :)

2009-12-07T14:57:00.002+08:00

205th post

Do dreams come true?

I hope so.

Oh wells, may it flow with Your plan still.

Love Equations

2009-12-07T14:36:00.004+08:00

204th post

YAY THANK GOD MY COM IS WORKING AGAINNNNN!
I'll give thanks everytime I can use it heh.
And my mouse is working as per normal woots :D

Anyway, as I was doing devotions, I came up with this:

Love = Cannot be denied-----------[1]

God = Love------------------------[2]

Subst. [1] into [2];

God = Cannot be denied

REVELATION.

Hahaha that's just one of the reasons why I love doing devotions.

Anyway, have been walking to and fro my cousin's house [tuition], from Pasir Ris Inter. Love these walks cause they're wonderful times for me to think about things and talk to God.

On Saturday, it was drizzling when I walked to PRI.

On the way, I was so in awe of the nature.
The trees, leaves, grasses, flowers..

It made me wonder how did God think of so many different varieties of plants and their unique uses. Be it medicinal value, food for insects, etc.

These reminded me of God's existence as well.
But God prompted me to look at my own arm then. And I think He said,
'This alone is enough to remind you all day.'

As I continued strolling, the thought of blogging came to me suddenly.

People look at drawings and ask who's the artist.
People look at books and ask who's the author.
People look at craftworks and ask who's the craftperson.

But why don't people look at themselves and ask who's The Creator.

2009-12-04T11:08:00.003+08:00

203rd post

THIS IS AMAZING.

I JUST PRAYED YESTERDAY:

'God, can You please heal the com and let me watch some dramas online before I start working? In this way I can save the money that will be spent on buying DVDs hehe.'

AND NOW IT'S WORKING AFTER BEING SPOILT FOR SO SO LONG.

PRAISE THE LORD YAY :D

And thank God that I just got my job - contract signed!
Now I can spend more on Christmas gifts and my family le hee :D

Oh yeah anyway, recently, I've been listening to 'Today Is The Day' every single day - the first song I'll listen to, to be exact :)

Maybe I should say it's my top most favourite heh.

2009-11-29T15:57:00.002+08:00

202nd post

To be honest, I've finished reading the devotion guide already, HAHA.

Cause Zachary, as expected, did a really good job [understatement] in doing up the DG and I was like being thrown into the 'I-gotta-finish-this' mode, just like what always happen to me when a good book gets to me hahaha.

Anyway, Zachary, if you're even reading this haha, I tried your dare and yes, it's super tough.

But what I learnt the most is the very fact that
God, is always, right beside me.

Okay I should say this is a wonderful reminder.

I literally looked towards my right when I read about that God is always with us, almost fearfully at first, HAHA.

But thank God that this struck me at the start of the day,
so I can always bear in mind that God is constantly with me, which also equals to
'Caution: God is here.'

This is simple, yet amazing.

Thank God for you.

2009-11-22T16:09:00.003+08:00

201st post

Thank God that the com is feenally™ working properly.
For the past few days, blue screens had been appearing and the com can't be used.
Hope nothing will happen again!

Thank God for the EB2A CG on Friday.
Though ShansicaSHEEP and Chervelle keep disturbing me [tsk tsk], I gotta spend more time with the people heh.

Thank God for the current difficulties I'm facing - I'm gonna learn to rely on You more :)
$256, $100, $50..

I need You so much - especially when it comes to my healthhh.

I need courage too; I'm gonna tell my Mum I'm going for church camp. Honestly.
And I die die must goooooooo.

Please help me with the learning of Smooth Criminal too;
I need tons of talents Lord.

Thank You Lord.

2009-11-19T20:46:00.002+08:00

200th post

Thank God for the time spent with ZiyingSHEEP during shepherding on Sunday :D
Great time planning!

Thank God for blessing me with the hair treatment offer thingy - pray it will really work!

Thank God for blessing me with safe trips to and fro Malaysia this week :)

Thank God for the time spent with Bernadette and Luanchun ketching up yesterday while having Choc Fondue :D

Thank God for the time together with my dear EBC Grads and Jacq today at City Square :D
Thank God for all the good buys muahahahahaha!

Thank God for my Mummy who specially cooked noodles for me just now when I was really hungry :)

Thank God for my cousin's tuition offer :)
Thank God for Mr Victor who helped me so so much with my Emath such that I can feenally™ offer Math tuition hehehe! :D

Thank God for the resourceful Javin :D
Really really pray that I can get a job soon and very soooooon!

Today Is The Day!

2009-11-13T12:19:00.002+08:00

199th post

OH FEENALLY™.
THANK GOD O'S
OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

This is incredible; since the start of the day until now, this has been ringing in my head like madddddddddd:

'Today is the Day
You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it'

That's also like the first song I sang when I stepped into house.
[Actually when I was walking outta school - backgate - there's like practically no one so I started singing too. Love Song haha!]

I'm very happy - very happy - to be home, writing this entry.
[Sounds familiar to Michael's fans?
Heh original speech: Hello to the wonderful people of Exeter. I'm very happy, very happy, to be here...]

Anyway, all praises and thanksgiving to the mighty Lord for helping me to pull through all the examinations.
Especially:

SS; I only studied Bonding and Venice and THANK GOD THAT BONDING CAME OUT - MY LINKS WERE DONE MY TEACHER EVEN.

History: I only studied Stalin and Japan outta 6units and THANK GOD STALIN CAME OUT -The questions were practically the ones I spotted so it's just a time of regurgitating my essays - marked by Mr McDonagh + edited muahahahaha.

[Randomization™: Thank God for my Sis who bought Macs EVM for me and the best thing is what I wanted was McWings, but cause didn't wanna confuse my Sis, so chose to just stick with Fillet. Then who knows the person at the counter keyed in wrongly and I got my McWings HAHAHAHAHA.]

Thank God for all the 'kai qiao' moments during the papers too! [Sharmaine I know we sama sama lah har hahaha ]

Thank God for being so
gracious,
forgiving,
loving,
sweet
and everything!

*dances*
Saranghae!
*laughs*

2009-10-21T20:29:00.002+08:00

198th post

Thank God for CG just now with Sylvina and Jasmine - gotta know them more and talk :D
Heal Ngai Ying please Father!

Thank God for my Sis who helped me with the dl-ing of songs yesterday :D

Thank God for Sharmaine PA who's helping me take Math papers tomorrow :D

Thank God for dinner at home tonight :D
Thank God for the provided lunch today in school hehehe.

Thank God for Mr Victor who's so so patient today as well,
and promising to get me the Detroit Metal City DVD if I get A1 for Emath and at least A2 for Amath HAHAHA! :D :D :D

Last lap!

2009-10-18T19:45:00.002+08:00

197th post

Thank God for the amazing testimony of our new building to come.
Excited, but I'll miss Nexus all these as well haha.

Thank God for my Dad and siblings who cleaned up the house today - everything is so much neater heh!

Thank God for the wonderful idea He gave me just now hahaha.

Thank God for understanding friends who are willing to do things with me - impromptu even!

Thank God for all the motivations after O's;
I really really can't wait!

2009-10-15T20:50:00.002+08:00

196th post

May God be with all the Chung Cheng and Dunman High girls for their remaining papers! :D

I can't wait to enjoy, seriously.

I know I should be working hard now, so dear Papa, help me please.
I need the interest in studying to speed things up, so bless me yeah hehe :)

D&M!

2009-10-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

195th post

Almost full day in school tomorrow, can't wait to faster gao dim Bonding Singapore haha.

Meeting FionaSHEPHERD for shepherding tomorrow for dinner, gotta prepare my heart HAHA.

Yes God, let me always remember that Your ways are higher than mine.
Give me the discipline and motivation I need too please.

Thank You. Thank you.

2009-10-11T12:28:00.002+08:00

194th post

yinghui has feenally™ graduated on 091009.

4 Years, 1000 Memories.

It's been pretty tough surviving for me, especially Sec 2, with all the thoughts of skipping school everyday,
but I thank God for the opportunity I had to know Him in Sec 1 and the strength He gave me to keep moving on.

Really thank God for the following teachers:

Mr Gary Chua!
Wo gan di di de lao die!

Thank you so much for all the consultations this year, and also those SJ tags you got for me haha :D

Thanks for always being so funny in class, and the lovely ppt you did for us [ours was done before BN and 5KB larger wahaha!]!
Was very touched by the quotes :)

Thanks for showing us the Jandi-Junpyo and BB's Parody videos!
So memorable for a Kpop fan like me sia hahaha.

I'll work harder one - no more Cs for Physics!
Gotta tell gan di di alright!
And yes, I really think he's better looking than you HAHA.

Mr McDonagh!
My wonderful History teacher since I was Sec 2!

Thank you so much for making History so interesting - probably the only subject I've always studied for exams cause you make me love it so much!

Love all the you-get-it-means-you-get-it jokes you cracked in class;
I believe I got all of them so I enjoy your lessons even more hahaha!

Thanks for all the consultations as well, you always amaze me with your ability to teach without any teaching materials :)

Miss Chua!
My Lit teacher in Sec 2 then my EL and form teacher since Sec 3!

Though you always complain [in front of the whole class even!] about my handwriting [I really think it's brilliant leh], thanks for always email-ing us your consultation slots, ppt for the benefit of those who were absent [me]..

Thanks for sharing with us the various testimonies in class as well - I still remember the one you said about a church friend being a vegetable and after praying, he woke up. Really amazing.

I wanna share such powerful testimonies to a class too!

Last but not least [definitely], Mr Victor So!
The Best Emath and Amath Teacher In The Universe.

Thank you so, so much for being such a patient and capable teacher who helped this pathetic student who borderline passed Emath and failed Amath to one who scored A1 for Emath and B3 for Amath.

Not very fantastic results to most people, but the improvements show how much time and effort Mr Victor had put in for me.

Thank you for being a funny / lame teacher who makes me laugh a lot during lessons at the corner, gradually hating Math less.

Amazingly, I'm counting on both my Math to get A1s.

Thank you for the many encouragements [DBSJ tags as well hehe] and advices you've given me.

Thank you for talking to me and helping me to be less flustered before Amath Paper 1 cause of inadequate preparation.

Thank you for lending me your long rule for the paper, and thanks for lending me till O's end hehehe.

Thank you for being willing to take the funny poses with me on Friday - including the Junsu's flower pose on stage with so many people staring haha!

I'm waiting for your pizza treat and Detroit Metal City DVD next year hahahaha!

Finally,
Thank you for the message you wrote for 4 Harmony;
I get it and will always remember it :)

Docs with Ah Gong!

2009-10-04T20:35:00.004+08:00

193rd post

Thank God for the time I spent with Grandpa yesterday morn :)

Though I admit I was kinda frustrated in the morn [0700+] cause I had quite lil time to get ready for everything and bring him to the doctor, I learnt that my Grandpa really needs help and that the patience God granted me while being with him is amazing.

I don't usually have that kinda patience towards my family members [don't know why it's always easier when it comes to friends] , but I really pray that God will help me to grow in this area so much more!

Thank God for Mummy who bought the wonderful Bengawan Solo mooncakes for us ^^
Fave are green tea and traditonal lotus paste!

Thank God for yesterday's Macs breakfast with ZiyingSHEEP! :D
Very happy that though we didn't get to do a lot of work, she still chose to stay for service :)

Thank God for Yingjie who lent me her phone to kope so many songs yesterday during meeting hahaha :)
Haha I miss talking to you yoooo!

Thank God for the shang yue + chi yue bing session with Bernadetteeeeee last night! :D

Cannot post the pic with her holding it - it'll really cause her market price to drop HAHAHA.

Think we're the coolest people on Earth though - we ate yue bing, liao tian while sitting at Bedok MRT at 2100+ hahahahahaha!

Enjoyed the catching up a lot! :D
I miss crapping with you but more importantly, I'm so glad we could open up easily yay!

Just a special shoutout: I LOVE THE CHUNG CHENG GIRLS A LOT STILL AS WELL!

What did I do to deserve this?

2009-09-25T19:59:00.004+08:00

192nd post

Tuesday, 220909

After 3+ years, I feenally™ got the courage to tell my Mummy about me being a Christian who goes to church.

It's really amazing how the HS worked and the amount of courage He gave me.

It's just a normal conversation whereby I showed my Mummy my improving skin condition.

Mummy: Eh 扁下去了 leh [refering to my rashes and stuff]，你搽药膏啊？

Shakes head.

吃药？

Shakes head.

怎样忽然酱好的？

不用搽药膏或吃药，是人家帮我祈祷的。

耶稣啊？

啊。

你有去教堂啊。

有。

哎哟惨了。

[Just after scooping a mouthful of rice I think]

Mummy: 其实不要紧啦，你们下一代要相信什么随便你们啦。

No scolding. No slaughtering. No nothing.

Thank God so so much.

After which, as I was doing my QT, prayers that I've made myself and people made for me regarding my skin [remember FionaSHEPHERD haha] suddenly came to my mind, and also those that I made for my family; my parents' hearts being softened and all.

What did I do to deserve this?

Don't talk the talk; walk the talk.

2009-09-20T20:33:00.004+08:00

191st post

Thank God for Sharmaine, my newly appointed PA hahaha!

Thank God for the loads for laughter I had from watching The Ugly Truth and a great time spent with Huiqin :D

Thank God for healing Jiamin's swollen eyes and my skin :D

Thank God for helping me so much in curbing my video addiction - even if my Sis is watching DBSK I won't be tempted too muahaha.

Lord, I really pray that I'll be able to take captive of my thoughts and make them obedient to You.

A pure heart,
that's what I long for.

CCM!

2009-09-18T13:39:00.006+08:00

190th post

Thank God so, so much for healing my Mummy from her stomach flu.
It's so worrying seeing her going to the toilet 9times, feeling nauseous at what, 0400+? and can't sleep cause of the discomfort :/

Thank God she didn't kena dengue - I was really scared cause she's got dengue before and the doctor said if she tio the second time it'll be very dangerous - life threatening :(

Thank God for blessing me with patience and the ability to explain things clearer than usual as I coached my brother Science yesterday :)
Gonna do so later again! 1.5 hours only though cause he wanna watch Yi Nan Wang and I wanna bathe then do QT too Xp

Was reading about KPOP news and came across this:

Super Junior’s Yesung has done a collaboration with Yurisangja's Lee Sejun to release a CCM (Contemporary Christian music)
song; this has been pretty shocking news to netizens, since idol group members seldom go into CCM.

Yesung and Lee Sejun are two of many CCM artists collaborating together to release a project album called “July Project,” which will be released on October 5th; their contribution to this album is called "세상에서 가장 귀한 이야기" ("The Most Precious Story in the World"), and has already been released online.

Yesung has said, “I had always wanted to try being a Christian Contemporary music artist. So when Lee Sejun-hyung asked me to work on this song with him, I agreed without any hesitation. I also told my record label company (SM Entertainment) that I really wanted to work on this project, and they gave me permission to do so. Of course, I will not be taking any of the profits that come from this album. And I don't want a project like this to be a one-time thing, either; I want to continue working on projects like this in the future.”

Yesung has also said, "People always think I'm happy because I'm in Super Junior - but in fact, there are many difficulties that I had to face because I am a member of Super Junior. When difficult things happen, I get the support of my family and friends, but they're not always with me. And even though I'm not as faithful as I'd like to be, I trust in God and God gives me strength to overcome my mistakes and struggles. Siwon, Eunhyuk, and Kyuhyun also are Christians. Siwon is the most faithful one among us. Somehow, Siwon goes to the church every Sunday - he even went when we were on tour in Japan which is amazing, since there aren't many churches in Japan."

The profits from "The July Project" will be donated an organization called “Save the Children” (an organization that works to better the lives of poor children) which will use the donations for a project called “Good Lunchbox Campaign," to provide lunch for children who cannot afford school lunch.

How heartwarming! It's not often when we see an idol group singer doing such selfless things for a good cause. Best wishes to Yesung and Lee Sejun, and I hope that many children will benefit from all the work that Yesung and Lee Sejun put into this lovely song.

Credits: http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/super_juniors_yesung_releases_a_ccm_song/

SOA!

2009-09-16T18:55:00.003+08:00

189th post

Sometimes, I really get paranoid. Very. Easily.

I've been experiencing tailbone pain for almost a month - even now - and this has been worrying me cause I always think like I've cancer or sth haha.

I know this sounds rather ridiculous but seriously, if you know my Mum's medical history, it's possible.

What's worse is I think learning dance aggravate's the condition.
Aww man I no wanna stop cause it's my only form of exercise and sth I love a lot a lot.

And as I read from wikipedia just now,

'Back pain can be a sign of a serious medical problem, although this is not most frequently the underlying cause:

Typical warning signs of a potentially life-threatening problem are bowel and/or bladder incontinence or progressive weakness in the legs.

Back pain does not usually require immediate medical intervention. The vast majority of episodes of back pain are self-limiting and non-progressive. Most back pain syndromes are due to inflammation, especially in the acute phase, which typically lasts for two weeks to three months.'

Oh myyyyyyyy.
God please please please give me the sense of assurance I need!

No more taking things for granted!

2009-09-15T18:28:00.003+08:00

188th post

Thank God for Chemistry Paper 1 today - not too bad, at least I won't fail like last time I guess haha.
Thank God for the extra 10mins given due to the printing error yay! :D

Just yesterday / two days ago, my Dad was joking that he won't let my Sis have dinner anymore cause she always wait till end of the day to bathe.
So my Mummy said:

'你吃我的，住他 [My Dad] 的, 所以不用怕他。'

And it suddenly struck me that actually I'm very blessed to have a house to stay in, parents who take care of me, get pocket money weekly during school days, etc; things I always take for granted.

Thank God for all these, thank God that I don't have to go roaming on streets, thank God..

Breakfree!

2009-09-13T18:09:00.003+08:00

189th post

Yesterday marked a miraculous day.

I, Liew Ying Hui, have decided to make my 'MY LIFE' blog a normal one without being full of DBSJ video links.

Also, I've decided to breakfree from my almost-a-year's slavery - my survival shall no longer be dependent on videos.

Reason:
I shall start rebuilding walls in my life! No more delay!
If not like what Jacq said, one of the leaders or someone from another congregation may start talking to me about my problems sia haha. That will be scaryyyy.

Anyway, yesterday's service's teaching was really great - very very impactful.
The reason behind the above reason. HAHA.

Yup Jacq's birthday celebration was wondeful too!
Yiching and Shermaine's abstract dance and Misa Misa's abstract music were wowwww :D

Was so nervous when I walked up to affirm Jacq, but thank God it got better after a while. :)
I think from yesterday onwards Jacq will always do my 'saranghae' ending to me lor HAHA xD

Harvesters' Meet was an awesome time of sharing and opening up too; thanks for the various prayers!

As for Prelims..
I'm counting on God.
!

2009-09-11T13:33:00.000+08:00

186th post

Thank God for the

Amath consultation;
Mr Victor was really nice to teach me patiently and lent me his long rule till I finish O's HAHA,

Study group with Jiamin, Zeguang and Twenty Three Eleven;
though it wasn't really fruitful for me cause I was distracted by music and videos HAHA,
I gotta spend time with these school friends,

and Shepherdings with ShaniscaSHEEP and SherlySHEEP yesterday;
great talk and sharing with Shanisca and glad that Sherly gotta clear her doubts,
and hearing that both of them are stronger spiritually! :D

2009-09-08T19:36:00.003+08:00

185th post

Thank God for the shepherdings I'm gonna have this week with my sheepies :D
Hope I can find the stationery I need at TM area too!

Thank God for the shepherding yesterday - learnt a lot; I'm gonna start applying and just be think skinned in trying this Saturday muahahahahaha.
[You've gotta annoint me Lord!]

Thank God that my X-ray and blood tests results so far are all positive - I'm not anaemic nor suffering from cancer or anything wrong with my lower back hehehe ^^

God ah,
I really wanna be healthier.
I really wanna realise the promises I made to my Mummy.
I really wanna stop spending so much on those steal pig™ medicines le.
Please help me!

“ “An excuse is worse and more terrible than a lie, for an excuse is a lie guarded.” ”

2009-09-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

184th post

Was looking for fatigue/lethagry related diseases on Wikipedia so read about Parkinson's Disease and linked to Pope John Paul II - he's really inspiring!

Love this quote a lot:

“ “An excuse is worse and more terrible than a lie, for an excuse is a lie guarded.” ”
—Pope John Paul II

Assassination attempts

As he entered St. Peter's Square to address an audience on 13 May 1981, John Paul II was shot and critically wounded by Mehmet Ali Ağca,[5][11] a trained expert Turkish gunman who was a member of the militant group Grey Wolves.[105] The gunman used a Browning 9-mm semiautomatic pistol, striking him in the belly and perforating his colon and small intestine multiple times.[4] John Paul II was rushed into the Vatican complex and then to the Gemelli Hospital. En route to the hospital, he lost consciousness. Despite the fact that the bullets missed his mesenteric artery and abdominal aorta, he lost nearly three-quarters of his blood and neared exsanguination. He underwent five hours of surgery to treat his massive blood loss and abdominal wounds. When he briefly gained consciousness before being operated on he instructed the doctors not to remove his Brown Scapular during the operation.[106][107] The pope stated that Our Lady of Fátima helped keep him alive throughout his ordeal.[5]

“ Could I forget that the event [Ali Ağca's assassination attempt] in St. Peter’s Square took place on the day and at the hour when the first appearance of the Mother of Christ to the poor little peasants has been remembered for over sixty years at Fátima, Portugal? For in everything that happened to me on that very day, I felt that extraordinary motherly protection and care, which turned out to be stronger than the deadly bullet. ”
—Pope John Paul II -Memory & Identity, Weidenfeld & Nicolson, 2005, p.184

Ağca was caught and restrained by a nun and other bystanders until police arrived. He was sentenced to life imprisonment. Two days after Christmas in 1983, John Paul II visited the prison where his would-be assassin was being held. The two spoke privately for 20 minutes.[5] John Paul II said, “What we talked about will have to remain a secret between him and me. I spoke to him as a brother whom I have pardoned and who has my complete trust.″

How amazing.

Believe this was what the pastor on 102.3 this morning meant.

'Forgive and love the people who hurt you. When you've hatred, it means your heart's not filled with God. Pray a prayer of blessings for them.'

2009-09-06T15:22:00.000+08:00

183rd post

Thank God for Jolin's text just now;
really touched by the fact that she actually remembered those stuff I said some time ago and that she took the initiative yay! :D

Thank God for all the blessings last week - all written in my book of 'Dear God' woots :)

Thank God for the people - Sin Wei, Si Hui, Chervelle, etc - who encouraged me through the various ways;
all indirectly but yeah, I felt better :)

Listened to this teaching on 102.3 this morn and it's in Canto! :O

Understood about half of it and it felt like God's speaking to me:

'Forgive and love the people who hurt you. When you've hatred, it means your heart's not filled with God. Pray a prayer of blessings for them.'

2009-09-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

182nd post

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY.

THANK GOD IT'S HOLIDAYS.

2009-09-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

181st post

Thank God for the time yesterday spent with the girls during the BBQ @ ECP - feenally™ gotta see my dear sheepies Sherly and Shanisca! :D

Thank God I took faith to go too :)

Thank God for helping me with my Ehist paper :)
Though no longer confident of maintaining the same score, it's good enough that I attempted all qns haha.

May tomorrow be an even better day hehehe.

2009-08-30T14:23:00.001+08:00

180th post

Thank God for Mr Victor who's really patient and nice while coaching; really got the sense of assurance :)

Thank God for the KK appointment - buses all came immediately when going there and the govt's got quite some subsidies eh haha.

Thnak God for Ps Hong Teck's teaching yesterday; learnt a lot!
'It don't have to be new; it just has to be new to you.'

Actually I think I'm still a rock.

2009-08-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

179th post

Thank God for Sheeyong's text this morn - managed to learn Bonding Spore - exactly what came out - in time if not I won't be able to answer any SEQ I think Xp

Thank God for making my Dad available to fetch me to KK Hospital today for the Skin Prick Test - no needa travel on my own :D

Thank God for shielding me from the Sun as I walked in and outta school :D

Thnak God for Mr Victor who's so nice to help Jiamin and I for Amath :D

2009-08-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

178th post

Thank God for answering my prayers today - esp for the prevention of something disastrous from happening hahaha.

Thank God for keeping me awake throughout the papers.

Thank God for helping me finish both papers in time - I actually finished writing my compo in less than half an hour! :O

Thank God for the relieving of pain as well.

Thank God for somehow just blinding MRY and I wasn't caught for my invisible socks hahaha.

Thank God for everything!

2009-08-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

177th post

Dear God,

I really need Your help in helping me and my sheep - Sherly - to be more disciplined.

Let us not be emotions-driven, and please give us strength as well.

We gotta shine and glorify You!

Thank You my Lord.

In Your name I pray,
Amen.

2009-08-23T13:31:00.002+08:00

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Thank God for yesterday's Combined Service at Suntec - the drama rocks :D The conversations are really true.

Thank God for the shepherding before that with ZiyingSHEEP :)
Was funny cause we said grace in Cantonese! xD

Thank God for the shepherding with ShaniscaSHEEP just now - first time shepherding on phone! Xp - and also for the cancellation of her tuition and postpone of Geog test :)

Thank God for answering my prayer for ZiyingSHEEP and Siyao yesterday - Siyao's train came the moment she reached the station and ZiyingSHEEP's mum didn't scold her for reaching home late! :D

God I really pray that I can take my Amath paper earlier at 0930 on friday!